humph.

He doesn't kiss as good, i think its because hes scared that i'll pull my lips away at any given moment. Thats a habbit of mine with anyone that im either with or just happen to be fucking around with, all of a sudden i'll just stop and pull away at possibly even the climax of it all once the rhythem is going i break it. I'm struggling so much right now with the feeling of being dominated and the feeling of being powerful. I think my mind is playing with my body, i like when im not im control, but only because its what i fear the most. Do i like pushing my limits till i freak? thats scary jeez, do i like making my self as vulnerable as i possibly can be? i dont know i dont know i havent explored it enough physically.