ouch.

These are the days, the ruby days where it seams like i cant talk to anyone, really talk to them with out either losing them or frusterating them or making them angry or not getting my message through to them besides ruby.
i have a network of friends it seams its like a web that gets real sticky from day to day to day its not a big clump its lots of individual groups seperatly. i jump from day to day from group to group, not exactly belonging anywhere. And you know what i can have strong ass opinions too i can be loud and make my self heard i can be hurt and scream at you for it im no motherfucking mother teresa i have a spine you cant bend me. Dont treat me like shit. It started with a tall boy you wanted help so i told you what i thought, i think alot, but when you dont want to hear it you just dont listen. When have you ever given me half as much as i have given you? when has anyone? when will anyone? i dont ask for help, because most of the time i dont need it but just the lack of a friend like myself makes me in trouble all ready. somedays i wish i could meet myself, somedays i wish there was a fiona out there who could take care of me. blah. blah. blah. so bitter so nasty with your words just shut the fuck up its not doing anyone good its not doing me good its hurting me, i love you so much and all you do is bite at my ankels.