i have a train and sun dresses and a smile that can prop you up on tooth picks for hours if i wanted, thats the key if i wanted if im inspired if im urged.
im learning. Bestoing nothing along the lines of depression, i dont have sad thoughts to hide its different if i wanted to die it would be just to die. Not to leave just to do it to leave but not people to take a trip. It would give me a new set of rules so no one would even comply/fitt in or matter but not in the mean way.
it would be a new world. so so so i can separate you and her and him you wouldnt be people there would be no such thing as people?
get it.
Its easy to grasp like if i had the right words i could show you,


Legs bare
on my back
motionless
effortless
sillyness
clouded by my gaze
cottencandy cloud
on top inbetween
i can make it seam.
full on confusion
i am sincerely sorry

full on trickery
waltz through hair
but my finger prints dont cohese with
your scalp like i know they'd with his.
just a danceing through.
along nose touching spinal tapps.
Layyy down bbaaaybeee
Toucheeee DoucheBag!
roll- over -up
swim down to me
teetertotter tease
pleaseplease please.
shirt sleeves deceased
bite upon my breast
mother wolf at rest
calming the calf.
blow bubbles skip cunting
hunting for dewy after shave
that tells me alot.
You, on, around all over
but never at my level
at least open wide.
Forget with my eyes but not my heart
pumping faster

Arise from your frame. Flee from your bed.
Who needs cloths i hope the neighbors can see me
trail into kitchen naked
and poor myself a glass of water at your sink

trickery

not so much.
laughter is stalled
and pushed by my own tongue
silent is safe.
no body loves me.
i am a fake. i am weak.
i am strong. dont you forget it.
I love myself and my mother both the same reason.
i do miss him i would bite him. Lets be honest now.
its about to get scary.