Tom gave me a sickness. left me with snake bites. swishing through my blood venom- the freaking blood that i had just purified at nysssa...=[ take a stride forward clear shrubbery then have a small bag of sand like pushed through your gutt to collapse you smaller Head to toe i still am more connected, however sickly and hunched ya know- a fatigue is placed over my achievements and i cant get to them to activate and like a glow stick snap. The small bag of sand pushed me into a cube of pure fiona though- so in a way the occurances of the summer were amazing and valuble to me in ways unimaginable-but damaging? no no i can make that not so. its all about release.

Its just with out the propper release this new boy will have to contend with my aniexties at an unecessary volume.
"You have no idea. i feel like i wake up everyday because of the fact that i know im going to see you that day. i love everything about you."
embrace? see i would but i cant right now i can only organically doubt react with doubt at first but i know i know as my grown branch of thinking guides the impulses because i know ive been hurt badly but in the most beautiful way.
we trust him.
we do.
haha we-? =-]